Perfectly Imperfect

I'm sitting in my house ALONE! For me this is a very rare thing. Just sitting here listening to my music. No one is fighting, no one is talking over the other. Literal silence (other than my music) and I'm not sure what to do with my self. Do I go and get somethings done, do I do something that I enjoy, sewing, reading a book, watch a movie that I want to see. Nope I sit here and look at what I need to get the grandkids to go back to school. My kids are grown, living on their own, with the exception one, that lives here with her kids. I still feel it is MY responsibility to make sure that they have what they need or want, because they are my grandkids.  I find it hard to switch this off. I have done it their entire lives, mostly because I know their parents really can't afford it, but I really need to switch this off because I need to be looking at our retirement, it will be here before we know it and as of right now we are not prep...

July 22, 2020 I have been talking to God a lot about what is my purpose now. My kids are grown and officially out of the house, with the exception of my oldest and her kids, and she is doing so much more now with them that I'm feeling a little lost. Someone has always needed me for something, rides, dinner, laundry ect. So now its just me and the hubby (which lets face he can be a bit of a child now and again, but what man isn't lol) it's been a horrible year with the Coronavirus, out of work for 2 months ect, we had made plans that this year we were going to GO and do something away from home. Not going back to Indiana which will always be home, but away take some time for ourselves. Now money is a little tighter, partly because we have not been doing any overtime, because we have really liked being home and having weekends even if its just by the pool.  So I've been talking to God, I really want to do something I enjoy but somethi...