The House to myself

I'm sitting in my house ALONE! For me this is a very rare thing. Just sitting here listening to my music. No one is fighting, no one is talking over the other. Literal silence (other than my music) and I'm not sure what to do with my self. Do I go and get somethings done, do I do something that I enjoy, sewing, reading a book, watch a movie that I want to see. Nope I sit here and look at what I need to get the grandkids to go back to school. My kids are grown, living on their own, with the exception one, that lives here with her kids. I still feel it is MY responsibility to make sure that they have what they need or want, because they are my grandkids. 

I find it hard to switch this off. I have done it their entire lives, mostly because I know their parents really can't afford it, but I really need to switch this off because I need to be looking at our retirement, it will be here before we know it and as of right now we are not prepared. 

But that is not a conversation for now, right now I'm just going to soak up the silence and enjoy it. 

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